Monday, August 10, 2009

Can You Really Hear Me?

I have a completely mind boggling story to tell today. I am all confused and baffled and am clueless as towhat to make of it at present time, but here goes. Technically, its not a story, just a series of happenings.

I find it ultra hard to go to sleep on Sunday nights. Ever since I was a child. I get so overwhelmed by the upcoming week, that I at least need two hours to fall asleep. Last night was no different. I decided to turn on some music on my laptop for help. The likes of Coldpay-Fix You (which is by far my most favouritest song ever!), Ingrid Michaelson's Keep Breathing and Switchfoot's You. Which naturally got me into a like a weird mushy emo mood. And for some strange reason, I started talking to the Universe.Which is totally strange to me. I have never done it before, yet I did. I talked. I asked.

I said that I dont need a boyfriend, but itd be sure nice to have one, and that i was confident the Universe was going to find me the exact guy I wanted. My perfect one. The one that complemented me.I was buttering the Universe up. Spreading it thick. I remember smiling and drifting off to sleep.

Fast Forward this morning. 9am. In my office. Me checking emails. Completely forgot about 'divine want'.

I come across an email from an unfamiliar address. I quickly realised it was an ex-boyfriend. Long story short, it was a super toxic relationship which lasted 4 years. We loved each other but drove each other up the wall. So we ended it. We were friends off and on after that, but once he got married, I decided it wasnt appropriate anymore, simply because we had issues and feelings simmering beneath the mask of friendship. That was 2 years ago.

So you can imagine my suprise this morning when I received the email. He asked how I was and that we should meet up just to catch up. I was so shocked, I took an insanely sharp breath, which in turn prompted my roomie to assume I was having an asthma attack.

Im wondering though.Did the Universe really hear me? Because subconciously, I always felt that he was the One. Like a long time ago. He definitely isnt now. And He-LLO, I meant someone different and new and exciting who fits me?

Isnt that totally bizarre? I dont know what to make of it.

Thats it right there, the story. Tell me what you think. I just find it too hard to believe that its a mere coincidence, yet I cant tell yet how much I believe of this universe theory. What do you think?


marinik said...

wow... that would have frieked me out too... but don't go overboard... and read too much into it... ya..maybe it's a coincident.. or maybe this is how it was meant to be... just go with it... things always happen for a reason..what that reason is we just don't know. Maybe he's not here to win your heart back, but maybe just to wake your senses and make you notice other things (people) in your life.. maybe he's the bridge that will take you to your real destiny... so many ways of looking at this... just keep your vision open, but at the same time... let it unfold and see what comes of it, wow sorry went on and on....:)

Dionne said...

What a coincidence!

If it were me, since he is a married man, I wouldn't entertain the possibility of fate bringing us together again. Perhaps before you meet up with him, you could ask him how's things with him and his wife? And does she know that he wants to meet with you? I know that out of respect for his wife, he should talk to her about that first.

So you mentioned that your relationship was toxic - I would think that God would have a much bigger and better relationship in store for you than that! You are worth so much more!

Dash said...

Mari/Dionne: I am definitely not entertaining thoughts on meeting him or anyhting.s over.It Hes married. I dont do guys who are attached! I was merely commenting on the bizarreness of asking the universe for a guy, and THIS is what i get!!

sorry i didnt make myself clear enough!

Dash said...

ps: YOu girls are just soo sweet! THank you for being nice to me even when you were under the impression that I was a man stealer! Haha. Love you both.

marinik said...

"man stealer" that's funny... no you made yourself quite clear... it was bizzarr.

Chelsea Talks Smack said...

i totally believe the universe conspires with our thoughts....

Dionne said...

Hahahaha, I didn't think you were going to steal him, lol. I just was worried that if you met with him he might get the impression that you wanted to steal him, that's all.

So what did you end up saying to him?

marinik said...

hey Dash... a little award is waiting for you on my blog, please go claim :)

Dionne said...

Hey Dash! It's been a few weeks since your last post, so I just wanted to pop by and see how you were going lately. Miss your posts!

marinik said...

Dash, i've tagged you for a list, come by and see :)